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my mom's death

Wed Feb 3, 2010, 2:05 PM
  • Mood: Steaming
  • Listening to: Halifax - Broken Glass Syndrome
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: I haven't eaten and I don't think I will
  • Drinking: nothing
I recently found an old newpaper article made in 1995 about my mother's death. I typed out most of it

here it is

it said

Toddler found locked in apartment with slain mother
A 13month old girl apparently wandered around her east side apartment for several days without food or water and only her kitten as company as her mother lay dead from a knife wound in the chest.
the tot was found naked, curled up on the floor of a back bedroom, sucing on an empty baby bottle and her kitten by her side
Police said the girl was hospitalized in good condition and had not been harmed
The manager of the apartment said Lowe kept her apartment clean. Janae was always clean and well dressed. Lowe paid her rent on time each month and went to work at the bank branch every day.


I really want to kill that bastard. one day I'll find him and torture him myself. I don't care what the consequences will be..I've always wanted him dead and now I want him dead even more

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  • Current Residence: Not your business
  • Interests: Blood and suffering
  • Favourite movie: Interview with a Vampire
  • Favourite band or musician: Marilyn Manson
  • Favourite genre of music: Anything but country and rap/hip hop
  • Favourite poet or writer: Poe
  • MP3 player of choice: Ipod
  • Favourite game: This hell I call Life
  • Favourite gaming platform: XBOX 360
  • Favourite cartoon character: Master Alucard
  • Personal Quote: If someone judges you or makes you cry, kill them
  • Tools of the Trade: Bullet to your Heart

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=izka197 4 days 19 hours ago
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sorry for the late thanks comment, I'm stuck in my inbox :XD:

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~A-Blue-Knight 4 days 19 hours ago
:D its okay

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Mood: Joy ~darksandor 5 days 2 hours ago
thanx for the fav =)
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~A-Blue-Knight 5 days 2 minutes ago
no problem :hug:

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Love and adoration is nothing more than a by-product of one's infatuation.:meditate:
It's merely an illusion.:meditate:
-Lesson I learned the hard way:sadangel:

To people who don't already know and are fooled by my username... I AM A GIRL!!!!
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~uchihanariko Feb 1, 2010, 4:25:03 PM
oh I forgot your name ^; sorry but what is it again? :o

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~A-Blue-Knight Feb 1, 2010, 4:34:41 PM
just call me Devona

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Love and adoration is nothing more than a by-product of one's infatuation.:meditate:
It's merely an illusion.:meditate:
-Lesson I learned the hard way:sadangel:

To people who don't already know and are fooled by my username... I AM A GIRL!!!!
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~uchihanariko Feb 1, 2010, 4:41:56 PM
oh okay :D

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Noone is Forgotten. Everyone is Remembered. And Everyone is always loved. So dont ever let someone tell you they dont love you. And Always Remember those who are Gone. They atleast can Have that.
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~A-Blue-Knight Feb 1, 2010, 4:44:30 PM
why did you want to know?

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Love and adoration is nothing more than a by-product of one's infatuation.:meditate:
It's merely an illusion.:meditate:
-Lesson I learned the hard way:sadangel:

To people who don't already know and are fooled by my username... I AM A GIRL!!!!
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~uchihanariko Feb 1, 2010, 4:52:44 PM
iunno, you told me before and I mostly all my friends on dA's real names,so when I think about them I'm not all like saying their user names you know?

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Noone is Forgotten. Everyone is Remembered. And Everyone is always loved. So dont ever let someone tell you they dont love you. And Always Remember those who are Gone. They atleast can Have that.
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